Jerry – Always With Us

I love and terribly miss this young man. This is my baby boy, Jerry, who now lives with his Father in heaven.  Obviously, this picture is a few years old & a little blurry but it’s one of my favorites.

This past week, we celebrated our 12th wedding anniversary and Jerry’s 22nd birthday. Though his presence here at home is truly missed, we’re thankful that we were able to embrace each occasion with celebration. It was the five of us around here and having to adjust to “minus one” hasn’t been easy. But by the strength of God, we are further along in the journey.  Life is different but much better than earlier days.

Jerry was and still continues to be a an awesome young man. My greatest joy is knowing that he loved Jesus. As I go through his belongings, I continue to find detailed items reflecting his faith. As mom, that is what keeps me and the family moving forward daily – faith.  It is faith that reminds us that someday, we will be together again.  Until that time comes, we will celebrate special occasions as if he is here with us. We will sing to him on his earthly birthday and prayerfully, we will begin to celebrate the day that he returned home with the Lord. That is my desire beginning this coming December.

I imagine that my son is having the time of his eternal life and I’m thankful for the 19 years that I had with him. He always belonged to the Lord, not me. I thank God for allowing me to bring him into this world. He will always be my baby boy.

Dear Lord, thank you for blessing me with my first-born and only son, Jerry. Let him know that we love and miss him.


  1. JoAnn
    September 22, 2014 / 12:14 pm

    Such Beautiful Words And Thoughts.Kelsey And I Was TalkiNG About Him Last Night. She Says She Thinks Of Him Every DaY. You Raised An Amazing Young Man.

    • Tracy Knight
      September 23, 2014 / 3:58 am

      Thank you JoAnn! Kelsey has been in my thoughts recently. I’ve always admired her artistic gift.

  2. lydia white
    September 22, 2014 / 7:14 pm

    Being a mother I truly felt your pain and I don’t know why these things happen but God does and He gave you to Jerry and He gave Jerry to you. He knew that Jerry was going to be called home at an early age and therefore He wanted his time on earth not to be in years but quality and loving so he made the perfect match between mother and son, sisters and family..

    God was there with you through your agony, helplessness and pain. He held you close and up and you were strong for your family in their time of pain. I knew and know that nothing I could say or do would ease the pain, but just so you knew and know that I’m a phone call away should you need to talk or anything else I could do to help.

    I feel blessed in knowing you as you truly are an inspiration for those of us who are not as strong, but we take some of your strength to deal with life’s ups and downs. You don’t just talk it you live and walk in the faith.

    Your writings are so uplifting when you have been through one of the hardest trial we could face on earth, God continue to Bless you and yours always,

    Love, Lydia white

    • Tracy Knight
      September 23, 2014 / 4:20 am

      Lydia, you are a sweet and precious lady. THANK YOU for encouraging me. I read a quote some time ago, “God gives his greatest battles to his strongest soldiers”. I don’t know but sometimes I feel as though I stay on the battlefield. At times, I get weary but God’s strength keeps me standing.

  3. October 4, 2014 / 9:44 am

    My prayers are constantly and consistently with you….this you know

    • Tracy Knight
      October 6, 2014 / 5:57 am

      Yes, I know. Thank you.

    October 4, 2014 / 11:10 am


    Thank you so much for sharing your family with us. I am so deeply touched by your testimony and ability to speak of Jerry’s love for Christ with such strength that only God can give. As a mother, I can only imagine the daily journey which requires patience and faith. Your story is inspiring and brings hope.


    • Tracy Knight
      October 6, 2014 / 5:57 am

      Only by His grace and strength…..

  5. Blanche Burch
    October 20, 2014 / 8:53 am

    Tracy & family, this is a beautiful testimony and remembrance of your son Jerry. Most powerful is your desire to celebrate the day he went home to be with the Lord. Thanks for sharing your journey of grief, faith, love, growth, peace, triumph…

    • Tracy Knight
      October 22, 2014 / 5:45 am

      Thank you Blanche!

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