Spring is here and it’s time to change the flowers for Jerry’s memorial vase, so our family drove to the memorial park to replace them together.
I’m super proud of the girls because this time, they wanted to create the floral arrangement for their brother.
Admittedly, I’m not very good at designing, so typically, I purchase them premade. In my attempt to be creative, I will occasionally do it myself.
As mom, it’s what I do seasonally to feel as if I’m still caring for him although he is no longer physically here.
Someone said to me, “Losing a child isn’t something that you ever get over. You just learn to live with it.” I suppose there is truth to this statement.
Over the past few years, I’ve learned to hope and cope. It’s what has brought me through the emotional stages of death. I experienced the same when my mother died. My hope in Christ helps me to cope with grief.
There isn’t a day that I don’t think of them and I doubt there will be.
God has graced our family to move forward with the anticipation of the day when we will be reunited.
We find ways to keep the memory of Jerry very much a part of our family.
When we travel, we take along something that belongs to him.
For holidays and special occasions, we include him in the celebration.
When we pray, we ask the Lord to give him our messages.
When I walk into a store, I look over to his department and remember his favorite brands or style.
When I watch a basketball game, I imagine him on the court.
When I hear drums, I see him holding the sticks.
It’s never-ending and for any mom in my position, it is a world of its own.
Through it all, we ALWAYS believe he is ALWAYS with us.
I think the girls did great with the flowers for their first time. They look beautiful and I know Jerry would be proud of them.
As we walked away, I thought to myself, “Here are your Spring flowers Jerry. Mom loves you and I’ll be back to visit soon.”